Middle of My Monday

Just had a nagging feeling that I NEEDED to blog something really quick. So I've been sitting in my Comp 2 class brainstorming what exactly my brain thinks I need to jot down. Basically I think I have so many things to do my anxiety is telling me to make lists and write down what needs to be done. 

Today I already tackled my Biology exam and surprised myself with how much I knew and remembered. I took a wonderful 45 minute nap afterwards and now have found myself sitting in room 414 listening to oral reports of research papers. 

I would love to stay in this little bubble of attending class and chilling in my room, but I have to work seven hours tonight. And trust me- I love my job @ STC but I am so exhausted lately and just need time to get my stuff done. 

Maybe that's what I needed to say?! I also just miss working out so much but I dont even have time anymore to get anything done. I CANT WAIT FOR SUMMER!!!! :) 

Happy Monday! 

New week, new goals

I'm so tired so this post is going to be short & sweet.  I felt like I needed to at least post something tonight, but I don't have the energy to muster up anything legitimate.  So, I will just write down my goals for the week and also do my verse of the week since it's Sunday.

Goals

1. Complete 2 T25 videos this week
2. Only visit Starbucks ONE TIME this week

Reward: New capris

Yes- I literally have to bribe/reward myself and if you don't have to... congratulations because you're practically an alien.  My Starbucks obsession is out of hand, and I don't just order frappauccinos or something stupid.  I NEED an iced venti nonfat caramel macchiato w/ no caramel drizzle + an extra shot of espresso.  In barista language that's apparently an iced venti triple caramel macchiato w/ no caramel drizzle.  Basically, I just need the espresso.  It's all that I care about.  So I'm cutting myself off/back this week because I'm too dependent on it and my wallet is crying.

Secondly and more importantly, my verse of the week!

-- When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.  Psalm 94:19

I cannot even explain how relevant this verse is to me, because anxiety is all I feel in the last few weeks of this semester.  Everything is all piling up at once and I feel like I'm literally neck-deep in water and cannot swim.  

I've never really felt "anxiety" before I came to college and all that helps the feeling is stopping what I'm doing, closing my eyes, taking a deep breath, and praying for a minute or two.  Sure- I repeat this process probably five times an hour but I'm surviving.

I may not survive on less than 6 hours of sleep tomorrow, but I will deal with that tomorrow morning.  Or in a few hours....whatever.

Here is to hoping I have a happy, blissful week! :)

- Mikayla

Hiiiiiii

Welcome to my first ever public blog post :)


I've had plenty of blogs, but always maintained them privately and figured that it was time to create a public one to hold myself accountable to some of the goals that I set for myself. 


I'm also including a disclaimer in this first post.  Here goes.  Disclaimer:  I'm not going to fine-tune my spelling and grammar so don't leave me a million comments letting me know how awful everything was.  I'm more than likely going to be posting at 10pm or later, so I'm going to be slightly grouchy and half brain dead, but excited to write. *As always*  With that, I'm using this blog to post about basically everything from college, work, fitness/nutrition, etc.  If you didn't read my description, I'm Mikayla... I'm 18 and a college freshman who is managing to hold down 16 credit hours + a part time job @ 25 hours a week.  I feel frazzled most of the time but put my faith into God to hold my hand and keep me on the right path.  I'm slightly obsessed with nutrition and health, although I tend to be one that gives the best advice and cannot take her own.  Another main reason for creating this outlet of a blog; maybe writing down what I think will give me some accountability.  As far as college goes, I'm currently a Bio major with Pre-Med in mind for the future with hopes & dreams of being an OB/GYN.  Yes- you heard me right.  I want to be a vagina doctor...the one who delivers children.  If you're offended or disgusted by that idea you might as well exit my page because I will probably post about it in the future.  I find the human body, especially a female's, extremely fascinating and I also think the process of pregnancy and childbirth is INCREDIBLE.  Another tid-bit about me is that I currently work for Sun Tan City, one of the largest tanning corporations in the U.S.  Yes... I know there are risks to tanning because it can cause cancer, blah blah blah.  I give the spiel every day at work, no need to remind me.  :)  

I think that ends my disclaimer... and proves that I get off track so easily because my mind is constantly racing a million miles an hour.  I'm a busy bee and wouldn't have it any other way.

So... the point of this first post was just to basically fill you in on who I am, why I'm making this blog, and basically the fact that every post will be scatter brained and I hope you will follow along.  With that said, I've been continuously debating of whether or not I really want to put up my "before" pictures from November 2013.  After a few months of some "good college eats" I found myself feeling like a complete slob and not like myself whatsoever.  I'm only about 5 feet tall and weighing 120 pounds is just not flattering on my small frame, but that's where I found myself after a few months of school.  I didn't gain the freshman 15, because I put an end to those habits, however I shudder whenever I see the pictures and make sure I don't go back.  To some, the pictures may trigger an "are you kidding me" thought in your head.  That I may look "healthy" and completely fine; but everyone has their own idea of "skinny and healthy" and this was just not mine.  I had never weighed 120 pounds before November 2013 and I don't plan on going back until I'm pregnant (hello....seven years down the road.)  Since then, I've become a Beachbody coach and completed the Alpha circuit of T25, but every time I seem like I'm almost to Beta I lose my motivation and don't workout for a few weeks and then over again.  My bad habits have been nearly inescapable since I still live on campus and still deal with the same food every single day.  No, I'm not near how I was in November, but I'm not in my ideal comfort zone with my body.  Do I shame myself because of this?!  No.  I know that I have the willpower and the tools to help myself when I'm 100% ready, and I'm just not there yet.  So... maybe I will get around to posting those pictures and maybe I won't.  That is a big step for me, because I've never let anyone see me other than being a skinny mini who looks good in a two-piece.


And that is where this post ends.  I open up the salon in the morning and should really be studying for my Biology exam on Monday... but I'm opening up my mind to my first public blog post. 

Hopefully you will stick around for this crazy ride. :)